Another moment of sadness

Earlier this year my cat, sinjee, A Siamese passed away. Now I face the prospect of losing another pet. Maddie, a boxer dog has been with my family for a little over half a decade. It's very sad to know that I'm going to lose her now. I only hope that her passing is painless and peaceful. Never in my life have I seen a more loving and loyal dog. She has an malignant tumor and isn't supposed to live out the month. I will miss her forever. The comedian George Carlin was right when speaking about pets. You truly are inheriting a miniature tragedy!

Looking down on criticism

It is always when we are judged or have our work critiqued that either our best, or our worst comes out. Personally, I have never had too much time for those that try to harshly judge me. Whenever someone tries I simply resort to the age old response 'How are you any better?' It never fails, someone who has never created anything in their life feels like they can stomp all over someone Else's work for whatever reason and I see it all the time. They always try to add in their two cents as if hearing that would actually improve the quality of my work. If anything, it would be detrimental to it. If you give certain people an inch , they will wind up taking much more than a mile. Agree to listen to their supposed help, and, chances are, they are going to have you forget about your instincts entirely and be something you are not. I have one message for anyone who has any form of critique regarding my work, Don't read it!

Same Old, Same Old

I forced myself to watch the remake of a very popular 80's horror classic the other day, and it really made wonder just how desperate filmmakers are for new, decent material. To say they butchered it was a definite understatement. I personally believe there really hasn't been a great horror movie produced for years. And it just goes to show that what I've been saying for ages rings especially true now. People are exhausted by the same old formula that horror movies are created with. They want fresh blood, if you will. Ideas are the very fabric of producing anything, and it does make me wonder how open the Hollywood elites are to new ones. Ones that are based on originality not commercialism. I think its time for them to realize that the only reason horror ever made it as a successful genre was because someone took a chance on an obscure subject. That subject is not as obscure as it once was. In order for people to become the fanatics they used to be, a new approach is needed I think. The 'same old, same old' must be replaced. Hopefully, I can soon turn people's heads, and their stomachs, with MY material!

Trusting too much?

I've seen a lot of people who, when it comes to anything having to do with people, are extremely paranoid and distrusting. I know how society likes to label them as being overtly negative and their feelings as unnecessary, but, for the most part, can you really blame them? I personally believe that you can only trust a very select few in this life and even then you really have to be careful. People have proven to me numerous times that it is very dangerous to even consider trusting them, no matter how sincere they seem to be. Being too trusting can be best described as naive at best, foolish at worst. And it has cost some people their very lives. So, when I look at that fact in it's entirety, I guess being paranoid is none other than a necessary evil! Trust, in all honesty, has to be earned rather than given.

Right or Wrong?

What makes something wrong or right? I always find myself asking this very question on a regular basis. I have noticed that when the majority of people accept something as the norm, then it is also accepted as being 'right'. But, what do the majority of people really know? Are they the moral stronghold that the universe is governed upon? If anything, they are only going to support something as being right if it has some sort of benefit for them, regardless of the consequences. All people do this. I'm pretty sure it is this self-righteous attitude of people that had caused many of the world's problems going on today. If something is morally reprehensible but is brutally enforced does that make it right? And if something is morally sound but completely ignored by the masses, does that make it less than what it is suppose to be? Makes me wonder.

A question of Doomsday

I sometimes wonder how people feel about the supposed pending doomsday that is right around the corner, December 21st, 2012. I really don't know what to think about it myself. I mean, if it actually does come to fruition that this is the day we are all due for oblivion, what can you really do? You can't stop it from happening and you shouldn't live your remaining days in absolute fear as a result of it either. The only reasons I even consider it is because both the ancient Egyptians and the ancient Mayas had this date on their star charts as being the day of some sort of cataclysmic event. If it had been one of the many Christians 'prophecy seers' I probably would have laughed the whole thing off. I, for one, hope it doesn't happen. I haven't been as successful as I want to be! If the whole world dies on that date, it would only give me two years and a month and a half total to realize and finalize my dream. That is definitely not a lot of time. But, you really never know. I don't believe the planet is any real danger of extinction. The people, however, might be!

Finally finished!

I recently finished my 25th short story, 'One Night in Csejthe'. Being elated as usual after finishing a story, this time I think I am even more. This particular story carried with it several problems and challenges from day one. I had writer's block for weeks on end sometimes, and that was not the only thing I had to deal with. Life usually throws us all curve-balls but the amount of distractions I had while writing this story was unparalleled. From having to help move family members several times, to having to clear things out at my own home, it can be quite nerve wracking. I think that is why I'm so proud of myself for actually finishing it. There were several times during the writing process where I wanted to just quit because I thought it was taking too long and I didn't know which direction the story was going to go but I'm glad I didn't. I think it's just another lesson for myself that perseverance always pays off in the end. A writer writes, always. Now, I am going to start a new story titled 'To the Victor, The Spoils'.

A real freak

A freak should never feel shame. I have said this countless times in my life, and it still rings just as true for me today. People that have never experienced being one, could never know. I find it rather amusing when browsing social online sites (i.e Facebook, Myspace, etc) because I see several pretenders(people that say they are different or act different simply to get attention) But I doubt these same people have ever encountered the daily occurrences that every freak must face. I doubt they have endured the REAL pain that comes with the territory. The pains of rejection, humiliation, unwarranted hatred, dire loneliness, and so on. I doubt most of them could deal with it. That leads me to the question: Why pretend you're a freak? Being a freak isn't exactly something anybody strives to become. You just are whether you like it or not. If you truly are not a freak and just want an expanded social life, there are probably other ways of getting the job done. As for myself, I never had a choice. No matter which road I chose in life, it always brought me back to the same path. After a while you simply embrace it.